changes..

12-04-2006 at 06:15 AM

nkakapagod... things have changed... i think i've adjusted already but sometimes it just comes back. you know.. hehe...  i'm a freak!lhat nman ata tyo e. haha! nandamay pah! ahahaha! minsan andame kong naiicp. minsan nman i just go blank! ugh! hai. gulo ko noh. oh well...

knina xe i checked out his frndster and i suddenly missed him... still wondrin' how i lost the feeling... how i just can't find it nah... di ko nman cnasadya e, i'm impatient xe e. i hate waitin'... if i can be happy somewhere, i go... i look for happiness... un nah nga ung kinakatakot ko nung una e... i don't know if i'm gonna move on nah because if i do bka bumalik xa den i can't go back nah... and un nah nga ang ngyare! musta nman. hai... taz nlaman ko pang ngeemail pla cla ni __ s fwndzter last summer and recently dn. i don't know if they went out last summer. i wanna know! pero okei lang kung nagmeet nga cla. e pano nman kung mging cla ule... iniicp ko lang kung ano kea mara2mdman ko... hmmm...

actually, happy nman nah ko e. i mean i'm quite contented... payapa ko when i'm with __... ewan ko b kung bket msarap msaktan paminsan-minsan! ahahaha! freak tlga ko! hehe... nakakasawa n rn sarili ko. hai. anhaba ng patience ni __... hanggang san kea un. hehe. bad tlga ko! ahahaha. peo lablab ko un ha. pra xang depressant ko. sobrng calm ng feeling when i'm with him. i feel so loved... so blessed... yet still afraid... sna di xa magbago... natatakot tlga ko. hai... kung masa2ktan ule ako ng gnun 2nd tym around, di ko nah lam... hai... bhla nah... ayoko nang madaliin ang mga bagay-bagay... i'll just let everything flow...=)